You might have noticed (or not!) that I haven’t written for a while.
I overdid it a bit last year and managed to put myself off technology and blogging. I organised small meet-ups for new mums and mums-to-be as well as bigger events, I blogged regularly, I saw clients for Sophrology and I did some web design work here and there. All that whilst looking after Babou at the same time. I did way too much.
So the past couple of months, I took time out to breathe and be with my family.
I like to be busy and I thought I’d be able to do it all whilst simultaneously looking after a baby. I see other mums and bloggers do it, and they often have more than one child. Why shouldn’t I be able to do it? And does it make me a failure if I can’t do it all?
I think these guys are wonder women. They are able to juggle it all, work, blog, look after several kids, spend quality time with their husband, etc. At least, they give the impression they can. I haven’t got a clue how though… Do they manage to keep all the plates spinning and have a balanced work/family life? Or is it just a clean pretty window and they’re actually exhausted and feeling an imbalance? I tried to do it all and I can’t. And I’m ok with that.
Although I like to be busy doing stuff and achieving, I am not willing to compromise on relaxing and family time. I know way too much about the importance of looking after our body and mind and how burning out can happen very quickly.
Since Babou started crawling all over be place, I’ve been running after him trying to keep him safe and taking him places to exhaust his batteries in the hope he’ll sleep better. In addition to him not napping (or barely) and being mad about chewing on laptops and phones, I can’t do anything that resembles work whilst he’s awake as he’ll do everything he can to get involved. When it comes to bedtime, I’m on my knees, I’m exhausted. My husband comes home after a long day and the last thing I want to do is tell him I’m going off to do some work on my computer. I want to have a mindful time with him. And go to bed at a reasonable time. I haven’t got the energy right now to do anything else apart from being fully present with Eli, looking after him the best I can and seeing clients here and there when I have the opportunity.
And when the husband isn’t around and baby is asleep, I just want to relax, do some Sophrology for myself, put my feet up, have a bath, catch up with friends… I don’t want to sit behind a computer.
I have loved blogging for a year. It’s been lovely to journal about my pregnancy, motherhood and how my practice has helped me through it. It is been a great support on this journey. It served a need and now I need to take a break.
It doesn’t mean I’m gone forever. I might want to start writing again in the future. We’ll see where life takes me.
In the meantime, I wish you all the best and say “see you later”!